ilovealandjm

01:22 pm: Hello all!
I'm not dead!  Ive just been through so much shit that I shouldnt even have this screename anymore...Well, I went through hell when I moved with Michelle to Ventura....She left me for someone else and it went ugly....Well I moved back to my dad and grandma's house and I got my culinary degree from the Le Cordon Bleu!  Anyhoo, this year has had its ups and downs with my grandma passing away...but at the same time I "remet" the guy that I pined for in High School and we've been dating for a while now!  :)  Its been going pretty good but i really miss my grandma at the same time...

11:27 pm: Al: So, have you got your tickets for the Weird Al concert tonight?
Random lady: No

Al: What? WHY NOT?

Random Lady: whe-

Al: You know that the tickets are going to be sold out and there will be much weeping and gnashing of teeth, and you're going to be crying and saying 'OH WHY DIDN'T I GET MY TICKETS TO THE WEIRD AL SHOW?'  THAT'S GOING TO BE YOU!

Random Lady: Are you him?

Al: Oh, you mock me now!

12:05 am: I'M STILL ALIVE!
AAHH! YES!  I've been so distracted with things that I really haven't had time to post.  Well, things are going ok with me.  I got suspended from Brooks for faling some of my classes, but other than that it's been going really well for me.  I've got my tickets to see Al in JULY!!! EEE!!!   So, just to let everyone know,  yes I'm still alive and I'm going to post frequently.  :-D

01:29 pm: Bleargh. I'm sick and it sucks...lol. I've completely lost my voice. This is the first time I've lost it. I think I have a nasty case of Laryngitis. And to top it all off, I got Michelle sick too. Poor Chelle!

01:57 am: Well, I just got back from Vegas. It was an awesome experience and place. I went to my big sister (Mentor) Barbara's wedding. It was such a beautiful ceremony. This was my first wedding I had attended. Poor Barbara though. She was sick most of the trip up there, and to top it all off, her car needs a new engine. Anyway, I think I caught what Barbara had. My throat feels pretty bad....waa! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

11:33 pm: Love, or something like it....
I wrote some new poetry...I don't really know what to think anymore...


In A World

In a world of suffering
and of pain
There is one thing
That keeps me sane
In a world of heartbreak
and despair
There is something I'm holding onto
And I know it's there
In a world of hatred and disease
I'm begging you, please
Don't turn out the light
that guides my ship
Don't leave me
alone and dark
I need you to guide me
Stay beside me
and never let me go
You know as much as I do
that love needs two
to survive








Why Don't You

Why don't you realize
How much I care for you
Why don't you realize
That what I can give you is true
Why can't you see
The love I have for you
Why can't you say
The words I know you want to
Why can't you tell me
when someday is going to be

12:38 am: O_O Why are most sex experts old women?? I think it's a bit creepy...

01:15 am: When will someday be,  Chelle?

06:29 pm: OMG THERE'S A LIZARD IN THE BATHROOM!
A very amusing phone call I had...hehe




(Its just audio, so don't be confused..lol)

04:57 pm: There are some moments in life that just stop time for a bit.  Yesterday was one of those times.  Chelle came into the bedroom last night, and sat on the bed.  We were talking for a bit and I just sat up right next to her.  We were staring into each other's eyes, It was a very deep connection, at least I thought it was, I don't know what Chelle thought of it.  Even though we're techically seperated, I know that deep down a part of us isn't.  I know it for a fact.  All that I want and desire is her.  I want to spent the rest of my life with her and I want to grow old with her.  I would give ANYTHING, absolutely ANYTHING for one of those deep moments again. 


-Natasha